Torn

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Opportunities are sometimes cunning. 

 I've been thinking of this every second. 'til seconds became minutes; minutes became hours; hours became days then days became weeks and weeks became month.

 I keep on thinking of my tomorrow. 2016 is over, so what will I do next? Will I stay where I am right now or will I go out of the box and step forward on what's waiting there ahead of me?

 I have lots of questions in my mind nowadays until, choices came. I've been decided to look for a job that suits my career and passion. Then God is really great because He answered me right away. However, God is greater for He did not just give me one answer, but THREE.

 Now my dilemma is this, what will I choose?

 My first choice is the job that has a good salary and promising administrators but the load is not suitable to my teaching field.

 My second choice is the job that I once was dreamed of  but there is still a mismatch to my field.

 Then my last choice is the job that I handled already; I can do whatever I want to, I can make dynamics and I can practice my knowledge in teaching because this job suits my field. However, the compensation is not that bigger enough.

Torn. I am really torn right now.

I know that God is just testing me; my decision making. I can't say that it's easy 'cause I'm talking about my future here. Will I get satisfaction to every decision that I will make? I have to discern it cautiously because I don't want to regret some things in the end.

What will I do now? 

Will I choose money over happiness? Money over experience? Or PASSION over them all?

My brain controls my hands, my hands hold my future, yet my heart controls my passion.
It's really hard to take risk but I have to; and the only key to answer this difficult question is, "where will I become happy?". I'm torn.

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