Inside Mae

As I sit down to write this blog, I cannot help but get emotional thinking about my journey to where I am today. For years, I struggled with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS), a hormonal disorder that can make it difficult for women to conceive and disrupt their menstrual cycle. The fear of never having children weighed heavy on my heart, but I always clung onto the hope that someday, my dream of becoming a mother would come true. But it did not end there. I had another dream, which was to have a responsible and loving husband who would understand and support me through thick and thin. While it may seem like an easy feat, I had been through my fair share of relationships that did not work out. All I can say is that I am forever grateful to God for making my dreams come true. All those years of waiting, praying, and hoping were worth it now as I gaze upon the most precious gift I have ever received. I want to encourage anyone reading this, especially those who may be facing similar chall

All my life I keep chasing and pleasing people. I thought I’ll feel belong when I do so. Then I ask myself is that worth it? People will just talk to you when they need you, they are just there during happy times. Were they there during your lone time and down time? No, because from the first place, you always do the first move. So know your worth, dear  💖

It is derived from the book of Genesis in the Bible, specifically Genesis 1:26-27. It signifies the belief that humanity was intentionally designed to share certain characteristics or qualities with God. To create something in one's image implies a resemblance or similarity, while creating in one's likeness means capturing the essence or nature of that being. In the religious context, it suggests that we possess certain attributes or qualities that reflect aspects of God's own nature. However, it is important to note that this concept is often interpreted metaphorically or symbolically rather than literally. Being created in God's image does not imply physical appearance or resemblance. Instead, it points to our capacity to reflect God's characteristics in our moral, spiritual, and intellectual aspects. Some common attributes associated with God that we believed to share include moral reasoning, consciousness, free will, creativity, and the capacity for relationship

God desires to establish a profound connection with us at a deeply personal level. This intimacy is not purely physical but encompasses emotional, spiritual, and intellectual aspects as well. It is a desire to have a relationship with God where there is trust, vulnerability, and a deep sense of being fully known and loved. This intimacy is often sought through practices such as prayer, meditation, studying religious texts, and engaging in acts of worship. By engaging in these activities, we, as followers of Christ, hope to deepen our connection with Him and experience His presence, guidance, and love in our lives The notion that our Lord wants to be intimate with us is a way to express the longing and hope for a meaningful relationship with a divine being who cares for, understands, and loves us unconditionally.

Last year I posted this long essay about Mama Leni, let me share it to you: Ayaw ko kay Leni! Ayaw ko kay Leni kasi babae siya, lutang siya, bobo siya, puppet ata ng dilawan, lugaw, nagdadasal lang pag may camera.  Unang word palang ekis na. Stop stereotyping na porke babae, mahina na. Umpog kita sa muscles ni Hidilyn Diaz  🤣  char! Kidding aside, hindi kami BABAE LANG, BABAE KAMI!  💪   Lutang siya kasi 18 hrs siya nagtatrabaho - char. Luluhod ako sayo kung wala kang lutang moments  🤣  Siya lamang ang politikong lutang, na mayroon lang namang highest audit rating sa COA for 3 consecutive years as VP of  🇵🇭  (COA - commission on audit - di yan peyk news nor tiktok news)  🤣 Bobo siya- Ekonomista, abogada, elected VP with highest rating at bago pa sumabak sa politika may nagawa na. Puppet ata ng dilawan. “Ata” means di pa sure. So far kasi ang mga resibo ni Leni na lumalabas puro pagtulong sa mahihirap, pagprovide ng mass testing noong nagsimula ang pandemya, pagpo-provide ng libren

Just how I draft my talk. *bulleted* 

  When I walked through the aisle, nothing in my head but only hoping not to stumble down at that moment. Gusto ko sana icherish yung moment pero ang bigat at haba ng gown ko tapos kinakain pa ng carpet and all my loved ones were looking at me. I just stayed calm, did presence of mind and smiled to everyone. My tears went down when my mama and papa were cheering me and held my hands to accompany me going to the altar where my home was waiting for me.  💓

We would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who became part of our special day. Kudos to all the people behind the scene.  😭  Super solid nyo po!  💖 Coordinator- Schatzies Events Management Church- Our Lady of Remedies Choir- lovely friends (Joel, Anjo, Ceejay, Tita Monnete, Tito Rino, Ate Ghen, Violinist - Christian) Flowers and Aisle Garden- Diana Flower Shop c/o Sir Prinz Jessie Bridal Car- Joey Maranan Live Streaming - St. Ben team and Noel Macadangdang Projector and Screen - Hally Maniego Prep Venue- Airbnb @ Filinvest 2 Prinicipal Sponsors’ Souvenirs - Ms. Aileen Cabornay Souvenirs - 50 copea and 30 succulents    by Blue Garden’s Wedding and Events Place  Jo Malone Perfume Souvenirs by Ms. Aileen Cabornay Reception Venue- Blue Gardens Wedding and Events Place Program Emcee - Mr. Monday Galvez Catering- Richgold Catering Services Lights and Sound System  - Audio B's Wedding Cake -  Ysabel's Confectionery Photobooth - Facebooth HMUA - Azhyl Gobe / Rhona Buiti

  Bakit matagal mag withdraw ng pera ang mga tao sa atm? Ayon sa laki ng mata ko for observation: 1. Pinag iisipan muna kung Tagalog ba o English ang pipindutin. 2. Doon palang pag iisipan magkano wiwithdrawhin. 3. Paglabas ng pera, doon rin mismo bibilangin. 4. Mayron silang tatlong set ng card na pag wiwithdrahan.  5. Gusto lang tlaga mang asar  😅 Anyway, buti na lang may Gcash at Maya na ngayon 😂

  We all have unfinished prayers in our lives. Whether it's a prayer, we started writing down in our notes and never finished, or a prayer we said out loud but never got an answer to, we all have moments of incomplete prayer. Sometimes, it can be hard to understand why our prayers remain unanswered. We may feel like we have done something wrong, or like God isn't listening. But the truth is, God is always listening. He hears our prayers and knows our hearts. It's important to remember that God's timing is different from ours. He may not answer our prayers in the way we expect or when we expect it. But He will answer in His perfect timing. When we feel like our prayers are going unanswered, we can take comfort in the fact that God knows what's best for us. He knows our needs, our struggles, and our desires. He will answer our prayers in the best way possible. So if you too, have unfinished prayers in your notes, don't give up. Take comfort in the fact that God is

My dearest ones, It's hard to believe that our time together has come to an end. Imagine, since Grade 1, you were in my arms and under my care already, and now it’s hard and it pains me to stretch my arms and let you go; but as your second mom, I must watch you grow from a distance. I am so proud to have been your teacher all these years, and I'm going to miss you all so much. As you move on to new adventures, always remember the fun times we had and the lessons we learned. Always believe in yourself, work hard, and continue to shine. I have so much faith in all of you and I know that wherever you go, you'll do great things. Best of luck to you all, and always keep learning. With love and admiration, Teacher Mae 🫰

*NEW MOMent ALERT*  April 30, 2023 was the day of our gender reveal party and we’re having a mini Me! 😍 That was the best day of my life! I couldn’t have asked for a better gender reveal party/turnout/experience 😭  Thank you to our family who contributed to make our celebration special! 🥰 Thank you to everyone who came to celebrate such a beautiful day with us! We love you all SO much! I’ve never felt so full of love and happiness before, I’m so elated and blessed! 😭 I’m a girl mommy! 🥹  I can’t wait to finally meet Maria Emmanuelle! 🥰🤍 -Matthew 1:23

Ironic noh?! Totoo pala na kapag malapit ka na mag 30, liliit nang liliit ang circle mo. God’s will siguro na makita ang tunay na kulay ng bawat tao na nakapaligid sa’yo. Magkakaroon ka ng mga kaibigan na akala mo sobrang solid, ending nagkaroon ng hindi pagkakaintindihan, friendship over agad ang i-ooffer sa’yo. Disregarded lahat ng pinagsamahan, mabuti mong ginawa, pagmamahal na binigay sa kanila. Okay na sana na umalis sila sa buhay mo, pero sana ‘wag nang mag effort manakit emotionally, na parang kaligayahan nila na hindi ako maging okay hanggang future! What I learned from this is, to never invest feelings so deep to those people who are not reciprocating the same energy. Never trust anyone too easily! Never. ——— I’m so grateful i have my husband. He’s the one who absorbs all my angst recently, he doesn’t ride with my emotions but he makes sure that my feelings are validated.  I’m so grateful with my true friends, they know what I’m going thru right now. They always make sure I’m

  For most people, getting pregnant is something on the easier side. But to find out that my journey to get pregnant is going to be considerably harder and much more expensive, it hurts to know that the one that I really dream of is so far away from reality. Beginning with irregular periods as a teen, then a PCOS diagnosis as a young adult, my journey to fertility was already hurdled.  But my doctor and my husband did not give up on me. The first day that I met my doctor, October 2021, I was not married then, she asked me “do you want to get pregnant?”, without hesitation, I replied, “Yes, I really do, doc!”, from then on, my doctor was too hands on, she has requested a series of tests and gave me a lot of medication until I got married, November 2021, she was still taking care of me, she’s so reachable online, even if she’s driving she would take my call, and even if it was late at night she would answer my queries.  Almost a year has passed without getting positive result, I lost my

  Invitation for worship Start with a question: Mag bigay ng tatlong salita kung anong ang role ng Diyos sa buhay mo? Lalo na sa hinaharap nating pagsubok ngayon? 1 2 3 Let’s shout those 3 all together. 🎵  “Way Maker Chorus” 4x) Feel the presence of the Lord before doing the sign of love, In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit - invite the Holy Spirit 🎵  Way Maker - continue praises -  🎵  Here I am to worship - sing praises- Testimony -akala ko perfect ang buhay -until iniwan ako ng taong first love ko, ang tatay ko -evey night umiiyak kami ng nanay ko na babalik siya kahit hindi na namin alam kung ano nang nangyayari sa knya -until such time right in front of my eyes, nakita ko siya with the other woman -I did nothing but to asked him why, pero iniwan niya lang ako at naglakad palayo sa akin -the first man who I loved first was the first one who broke my heart - wla na yung tatay na tinitingala ko, wala nang magtatanggol sa akin dito sa mapanakit na mundo -

I drafted this testimony when I was giving a message to my colleagues, during our morning prayer time in school. I am so blessed to be sharing this breakthrough to them and I pray that some way somehow, I have been a help to them.  —- Let everything we do, be done with love. 1 Corinthians 16:14 This is my testimony when I was: Immature - since I was a kid, pabibo na ako, bidabida laging nasa harap at ang mga consequences na hinarap ko: pressured kung gagradute ba ako, kung makakapasa ba ako sa thesis and practicum, kung mkakapasa ba ako sa LET, nabato ako ng maraming judgement from my family, friends, and lalo na sa mga hindi nakakakilala sa akin, na wala nang ibang hobby kundi tingnan ang mga mali sa pagkatao ko, at hindi ko kinaya, hindi ko hinarap yon, I was lost and I decided to left my church service. Depression - Noong grumaduate ako, year 2016, nagpakasubsob ako sa trabaho. Gusto kong umiwas sa ingay ng mundo. Dinamihan ko ang raket schedule- no social life , nagstop ako mag ser