Inside Mae

Ikaw nanay ang nagsilbing ilaw naming lahat. Ikaw ang nagbigay sa amin ng kulay at buhay. Ikaw nanay ang pinaka masipag na tao na nakilala ko. Walang simunan at anumang sakit ang makapipigil sa passion mo, ang magtrabaho. Ikaw ang taong loyal sa pinanggalingan at mahal na mahal ang bayan. Kahit dekada kanang nakatira malayo sa iyong pinagmulan, ni hindi mo binago ang iyong kinaugalian at ang iyong inang wika. Ikaw nanay ang model o naming lahat. Totoong tao ka, matuwid at kung minsan masakit magsalita at magbigay ng komento ngunit nangingibabaw parin ang kagandahan ng iyong pagkatao at pagiging mapagmahal. Salamat nanay, salamat sa lahat. Salamat sa mahabang kwento na inipon mo para sa mga anak at apo mong dumadalaw sayo. Mangungulila ako sa iyo, sa iyong presensya, sa mga kwento mong pang wansapanataym, sa tawa mong tatlong syllables lang at higit sa lahat mangungulila ako sa paulit ulit mong pagsabi kung gaano mo ako/kami kalangga. Sobra sobra ka rin naming mahal nanay! Sa aki

As I passed my lesson plan yesterday, I thought everything will come into places. It was late in the afternoon when my superior was able to check it, but unfortunately, my lesson plan was rejected so i have to think for another one again. I cried inside. Not because it was rejected, but i cried for I don't have much time to think and revise my lessons. But in God's grace, I did. Thanks to my fellow teacher who helped me yesterday. But my struggle did not end there. Since my lesson plan had been revised, I need to revise my instructional materials as well. I felt more sadness when I realized that I was the only one who was left in the faculty room working at 7:00 in the evening. My esteem went low to the point that i thought that I would never make it. But God is good, He truly is. Today, before I went to my class, I asked my advisory class (grade 1 pupils) to please pray for me, almost all of them volunteered and surprisingly they were able to pray for me, then they gave me th

One month had passed. I admit, it wasn't easy at all! I felt too much pressured and anxious about my adjustments period. I committed lots of mistakes and faced many fears (short for farents hahaha 🤣) Yet, joy is still in me for I unexpectedly received an award for being Tender, Loving and Caring teacher (TLC). Indeed, for every sacrifice, toil, and hardship, there's always a good result in the end. Never I imagined that my work will be appreciated and recognized. For all of these, there's one thing I can say, "The greatest thing we can ever learn in life is to love and be loved in return". All glory and honor to God! ♥️

Whole Brain Learning System (revisited) Seminar helped me a lot in learning not only how do students learn but also, I was able to learn how to understand one's self. Professor Manikan taught us various ways how to deal with different scenarios, interpret symbols and enjoy thinking. As I reflect on professor's question, "Why does brain need to learn?", I came up on the idea that, "brain has to learn so that a man can know his purpose in life".  However, I realized that learning is not as simple as eating a food, but learning is searching for the reason why do we eat food. In connection to real-life situation, people who have good brain give a good judgement but those people who don't think critically and think quickly, make negative responses towards situations. How do we have an intelligent thinking? I learned that having positive emotion enhances better learning. When a person is happy, a body produces lots of endorphin; the more endorphin

They say that it is better to give than to receive. BUT I think too much giving is TOO MUCH. Do we have to give everything just to prove to others that our love is genuine? Do we have to exert lots of efforts just to be appreciated by others?  Do we have to do all of these? 'coz me? Yes. Yes I'm stupid. I know this is not the measurement of love. I just know that loving is giving and vise versa. But how can one appreciate it, if his heart is not widely open? It hurts. Yes, it hurts. My heart is crying, knowing that when I give everything, everything will be okay. Yet, NO! All of my thoughts are wrong. It is true that even though you've done too many good things, one mistake will always be remembered. LIFE. IS. UNFAIR. If people will return to you the things you gave them, well thank them, But life teaches me that it is always UNFAIR! I gave TOO MUCH but I didn't receive even KINDNESS. I only want RESPECT! If people won't give that to me,  I wil

Opportunities are sometimes cunning.  I've been thinking of this every second. 'til seconds became minutes; minutes became hours; hours became days then days became weeks and weeks became month. I keep on thinking of my tomorrow. 2016 is over, so what will I do next? Will I stay where I am right now or will I go out of the box and step forward on what's waiting there ahead of me? I have lots of questions in my mind nowadays until, choices came. I've been decided to look for a job that suits my career and passion. Then God is really great because He answered me right away. However, God is greater for He did not just give me one answer, but THREE. Now my dilemma is this, what will I choose? My first choice is the job that has a good salary and promising administrators but the load is not suitable to my teaching field. My second choice is the job that I once was dreamed of  but there is still a mismatch to my field. Then my last choice is the job that I handl

Everyday, I am always grateful to God for I see things beyond expectations. I praise God for all the blessings He has given me. I thank Him for always waking me up every after the night ends. I thank Him for letting me see the sunshine, for letting me feel the air, for letting me talk to the people He made and for giving me the things more than I deserve. I praise God for creating me, for teaching me everything, for molding me, for making me what I am today; a unique person so as my personality. I thank Him because He has trust on me for He is still giving me the everyday. I know God has plans for me. A plan to build, and a plan to rest; a plan to hold on, and a plan to give in; a plan to grow, and a plan to fall sometimes. But He never once left me in my journey. I thank Him for letting me encounter new people everyday and friends to treasure forever.  I thank God for the trials and challenges; they make me strong and stand on my own feet. He is indeed a great teacher. I love t